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If you told me having another baby would bring me healing and the best mental health in 3 years, I wouldn't have believed you.
But that's exactly what these 5 weeks have done.
Siah's first year broke my heart - watching him in pain he couldn't express except through crying. No matter what I tried, I couldn't fix it. That helplessness fed my PPD and made me feel like I was failing him. He deserved a pain free journey.
I didn't recognize the person I became - the rage, anxiety, and shame that took years to work through. Some days I just wanted time to speed up, which only deepened my guilt. Any mama who's been there knows that feeling.
I'm so thankful I didn't allow fear to keep me from trying for a third. Because now... watching Siah with Harper is healing something in both of us. The way he lights up when she looks at him, his gentle little hands on her face - pure magic. His complete love for his baby sister is filling those missing pieces from his early days. His joy is washing away the guilt I've carried for so long.
She is healing us both in exactly the ways we needed.
#healing #thirdbaby #postpartumdepression